I exactly don’t remember the first time I experienced it, but I was around 12yrs old when I named this experience, sound of silence.
Almost every evening I experience the sound of silence, I get home in the evening, not as everyone does, my home would mostly be empty, I mean no people(a home is not made of chairs and tables), I open the door, throw the keys on the couch. When the whole house is silent, the two seconds of its flight and then the cling sound, I love that silence. Its music.
Sound as we know, can be music and\or noise. But I am pretty sure that it’s in the way we want to hear it. Anyways if I say, I actually planned to write on this because it’s been almost 3weeks since I last opened my blog i.e. my blog was silent for almost 18days. It had a sound for itself, it will be a lie, I am writing this with the fear of not being able to share my problems with whom I have for so long, with the fear of …. Sorry don’t know how to convey.
One’s heart may hear many sounds every day. The essence of the sound will be understood when in SILENCE. Example: the days when your best friends went away to a different place to carry on with his/her career, promising to mail back as soon as he/she reaches, giving hopes that it’s the era of communication. It would have been fun, serious fun, sending him/her off, taking photos, signing t-shirts & greeting cards, having an evening snack, lots more. It would have been great to get a text msg from your friend the next day, which would run for around 2 pages if typed down, as if he/she has never travelled before. COMEDY.
But do you remember the night when u came back home, lying in your bed looking at the ever rotating fan up there on the ceiling. SILENCE. Getting reminded of the memories (recent past to distant past), everything that happened, those delicious lunch u shared which would have tasted bad if eaten alone, those classroom benches u had to sit and wait for the day’s class to end and then sit at the same place to discuss everything under the sky, birthdays when u forgot to wish your friend, class notes, group study, group scolding, fights and sorry, compromises, most awaited free periods, days of weekly and monthly exams, exam results, pet names, those half kilo birthday cakes which had to be shared between 20 people (considering the fact that 80% of the cake was to be used as face cream), when a treat meant re grouping at the street end shop, when we queued up in book depots, when a outing meant 2weeks of planning and last minute call offs, when we walked a long way just to say bye at the end of the road.
We played, we won, we lost, we laughed, we cried, we fought, we thought, we enjoyed, Lots more, everything together.The music that was there for so long becomes noise realizing it is no longer there.
Hoping that these days will come back, hoping that computer would transfer people from one place to another, hoping that emails always reach as and when u think, hoping for holidays throughout the year.
Still, getting busier everyday, meeting new people making new friends, setting new goals.
Life moves on, without even realizing that our friends have taught us everything, except to LIVE a LIFE without them.
