ALONE...

Feelings are sometimes best expressed though words. Oops.. what do I do when I don’t find the right words… what if words get jumbled, what if I silence is preferred, what if there are lot of other things to do than sit and put down the words, what if I don’t get a pen, what if ….. if… if… I GET STUCK LIKE THIS.

I don’t know, I seriously don’t know, at these times, I prefer silence, having the hope that the same thought ll come down again someday, I go somewhere and spend some time alone.

Being alone is awesome. Remember alone is not solitude.

Alone is a time when u share your best version with yourself.

I have travelled alone; met new people did some of the craziest things. I have spent time alone on my house terrace and jus thinking what to think. I have spent time alone in a new place, just listening to people talk. I have spent time alone, when I was all laughing and making fun. I have spent time alone sitting in front seat of a car, when my close friends were sitting in the rear side. I have spent time alone, when I was angry... I have spent time alone, when I was sad and happy… I have spent time alone thinking, I have spent time alone, playing my instrument, I have spent time alone, doing nothing and everything.

When I was alone, I realized what I wanted in Life, when I was alone, I have understood a few things about things I did and dint understand previously, when I am alone I understand people and the times I miss.

I have been alone, when I was least alone!!! Loving been alone, I have been falling in love with the person I am alone with.

I have answered all the “what if” questions being alone, I don’t know why I am writing this, but what if I was alone, writing this time.

ASSUME

Assume that assumption will be something quite cool, until u read this.
Assumption makes things easy, for example people initially people thought (oops sorry), assumed earth was flat. It was easy enough to understand how we don’t fall.

Assume: Girls run behind guys’ wall posts and photo on facebook. First few days will be like “awesome, look at my number of notification”, but then after a few days u suddenly, find that all your photos and wall posts are commented by people whom u don’t even know, your notification list touches 3digits, if u are out of facebook for 2 days.

Assume: the girl u proposed to, immediately accepts. WOW. But when u go out, she stares at other guys as if the one sitting in front of her is a donkey.

Assume: u go to a movie and the heroine’s father accepts her love with his maid’s son, who is studying in the same college. Your movie ll be over even before the popcorn.

Assume: your best friend stays as close to you even after he has fallen for a girl, finished end of girl friend story.

The creative individual has the capacity to free himself from the web of social pressures in which the rest of us are caught. He is capable of questioning the assumptions that the rest of us accept. Assume that I said this.

Assume everybody were the same, assume U topped the class in 12th, assume U dint join the college U joined, assume u dint meet the people u met, assume u dint fall in love with your girl, assume mom does nt wake up every day, assume u never fought with your sibling, is like saying assume U WERE NOT U & NOTHING U KNOW IS TRUE.

Assumption makes a issue look perfect but they don’t give solutions, assumption made things look more beautiful but u did miss the real beauty, assumptions make u and me a BEEP…

maybe that’s why it sounds like A**-U-ME…

Dear friend

Hey mate,
its been long since I wrote to u. how are u. I am doing good. My work is challenging. I hope u are also doing good. And ya money has brought in a few things (bledy materialistic world) closer, everything from an evening snack to the vehicle I drive has got costlier, my weekends are celebrated like festivals.

But with the best things around I don’t feel complete. Ya ya, money can bring some happiness and crying in a BMW is better than on a cycle, but those moments don’t become “I wanna RELIVE them”. I have a lot of money to spend, but my question is whom do I share it with, when u are not around. Riding on a bike at 12 midnight is fun, but do u remember those days when we used to cycle down home at 1 in the noon after a day full of chemistry, do u have an adjective to express that. It was simple and beautiful when the life biggest question was “whats the most important question for tomoro’s test??”. And the best lunch was my ‘thayir sadham’ with your ‘vendakai’.

The people I meet today are fun, I can hang out with them, but I don’t feel all the same. People don’t come along without an ‘I expect this from U’ and I go don’t without a ‘ya, but only if do this for me’ tag.

I still remember celebrating your birthday in your house, with a 1Kg cake for 20 people and after cutting the cake playing basket ball with a foot ball. And now I don’t even get to call u at 00:00 accurately cos u live in a different time zone. Your birthday ll be the most expected day of the year and if your birthdays falls on a free period day, that calls for more excitement.

The days which knew no EGO, the fights which were mostly for, who is taking that extra chocolate, the timings which was 9 to 3:45, when weekends were for not to spend the complete day with u, when the chairs which were wooden with u me and our close buddies, when the evening snacks was 2 samosas divided by 5, when the vehicles were non-polluting. And the time when I got to be me always.

I MISS U MATE.

Loving (past continuous, 5TH standard English) friend,

PS: Crying in a BWM is better than a cycle, but nothing can even come close to your shoulders. I promise to spend time with u on your next birthday (buying a gift for Rs50 was easier than finding time in this bledy busy world).

I HOPE I NEVER GET TO WRITE THIS LETTER.

SMILEY ;-)

:-0, , ;-(, : ‘, :-P etc etc… wow these SMILEYs… girls call them cute, boys call them to girls call them cute. They tell us a lot about our self. They are so cool at times, u don’t need to explain beyond a few symbols. If during the beginning of book writing, full stops and punctuations made people understand English better. Now writing on facebook is made easier by smileys, cos today English is not jus about Shakespeare and Augustan, its about u and me. Imagine what ll the status “oh my god” mean. A smiley with it would better.

But these smileys tell us a lot than jus about the language, but the purpose of the language, COMMUNICATION.

We text more, we type talk more, we facebook more than we talk. May be that’s why we are polite and all sweet when it comes to digital talking.

Have we ever thought “am I talking the same way I text…? Do I sound as good as my msg sounds? Do I talk the same way my facebook wall talks to a new friend.”
The way I see it, answer is no…

1) Have we ever smiled back at a colleague while travelling in the same lift crossing 5 floors?
2) Have we ever smiled back at a stranger walking on the road?
3) Have we ever addressed a person next to my friend saying “@X: ---------- “or atleast a Hi?
4) Have we ever appreciated without gender bias ;-)?
5) Have we ever tried to make more friends, REALLY?

People are cool when they text, awesome when on face book, brilliant when chatting... but we are mass and much more when we smile (no disrespect to mass).

LET THE SMILES BEGIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GREENERY

Ah, the word green. This so much reminds me of the global warming, climate change, the Kyoto, the tag which people are giving to make their business better, etc, etc.. But more than all this green reminds me of human mind. THE GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE. It's greener because you're seeing it at a shallower angle. That effectively means you see more grass and less dirt than when you look straight down…

People may feel green about many things… LIKE

“When I was in primary school, I enjoyed life very much, all I had to study was ‘A’ for apple or airplane and highest level of mathematics was division, all teachers were kind to me, my parents gave higher priority to my sleep than the home work ” GREENERY 1

“My secondary school days were awesome, relatives used to buy sweets when they come home, the toughest and biggest question about life was ‘find x’, mornings were about should I take the bus or share auto, evenings were about hindi tuition or maths tuition, ll my dad get me a new cycle at least for this birthday?” GREENERY 2

“My high school life was the best days of my life. Met some of the best friends who I never thought ll make such a huge difference in my life, had great teachers, having fun meant a movie once every month and cycle race, winning and losing was about comparing with your best friends, toughest question to answer was ‘why are u up so late or why are u late home’ ” GREENERY 3

“College days, wow they were like _________ (fill in with some +ve adjective) getting up morning 6 to catch a bus at 6:30, semester exams, meeting HOD, find a matching shirt for the pant, getting into the college’s students clubs were really big things to do, first day first show, a cell phone, 50Rs more to top up, a ‘HI’ reply back from fav girl next class, ALL PASS topped the wish list, finding time to go through the final sem projects during the busy outings, paper presentations, etc etc ” GREENERY 4

“My first job, my life a bachelor, my that, my this…“ GREENERY goes greener

Every phase of the life becomes a paradox, when a particular phase is part of the past we see the best days and when it’s part of the future we work towards it anticipating it and imagining how cool it would be. We like the future, which could possibly be the present one day; we love the past which was once the present.

We get better every day, working towards the future and living with the memories of the past, making every moment as memorable as possible and going green…

I FIGHT

I get up and I sleep and in between that I fight. I fight so hard that even in my dreams I fight.

Fight is the way of life. But I am not a terrorist or an activist or a boxer… I am normal person who eats, travels, sleeps, works, meets, celebrates, enys, egos, and everything U do. But my fights are mostly like intrinsic. U won’t realize I fight because it’s the way life is and it’s probably the way everybody in and around us live.

Morning I get up fight with my tooth paste tube to squeeze the tooth paste out, fight with the unseen politicians and advertisements through the news paper, take a knife poke it hard and cut it hard and make a vegetable salad, pack the veg fight in a box to bury it down under later.

Twist the lace, stamp the shoes and kick the bike still fighting, move from home to work or where ever. Fight for petrol and give a better fight for FREE AIR. Move on road, overtake an opponent on the road, dogged by another, fighting with my music player to play a better song drive on and reach. Fight for the lift or stairs, fight for work and when I get it, fight not to finish it.

Fight for a cinema ticket, fight for traffic free road, fight my own rules, fight my anger fight my laughter, fighting the sun and rain when they are around giving signs of spoiling the day, fighting for my own limits, fighting for Independence, fighting for justice, fighting for and with my friends, fighting for NO WAR, fight for a new world still fighting myself not to change, fighting & fighting.

I fight aggressively, I fight requesting, I fight bad and good, I fight fiercely. I fight tensely, calmly, handsomely, ugly, happily, sadly. Getting better day by day and still needing a lot more experience.

Fighting for me, with me, against me, by me and all this in my own style.
And now I gotta fight to publicize this blog and u have to fight and like this.

The world is a fine place and worth fighting for. Happy fighting, happy living.

INDIA TODAY

We owe a lot to the Indians, who taught us how to count, without which no worthwhile scientific discovery could have been made!"
- Albert Einstein (Theoretical Physicist, Germany)

And this is just a small fraction of an example of what great people think of INDIA’s capability. We are the people who taught the world how to count, how to do a surgery, who invented wireless communication. And started all the bleedy carp invention, that the rest of the world in completing today. The matter of concern here is why the country with so much intelligence and power is not able to organize an international sports event today.

The freedom struggle like no other has seen, the freedom fighter like no other country has seen.

But today, imagine what a billion of us do. Not obey traffic rules, accept and appreciate bribe, spit in public, not doing something what we believe in, not actually know what we believe in, believe in something just for the sake of it, ill treat a person based on his believes, not respect all people equally, discriminate a person based on the job he is doing, believe that god is directly proportional to caste. India is today a place where a person believes in fate, super power and etc more than himself.
But forgets to enjoy what he has got, compares his life with the western life. Thinks low of himself and his country.
Anything wrong that happens in this country, we say “that’s ok, its India and this is how it ll be”. And immediately compare it with so called better countries. But fail to understand ite we who make this country, without us this is just another geographical.

"If there is one place on the face of earth where all the dreams of living men have found a home from the very earliest days when man began the dream of existence, it is India!" but today the problem is we all dream about not being an Indian. We dream individually, we dream materialistically, our dreams contradict.